[gently and kindly reminding you that someday someone is going to look at you and finally understand every sappy love song they’ve ever heard]
people keep saying they think I look like Zooey Deschanel and you know when you’re unsure whether people say things because they actually mean them or whether they’re saying them because they think you’ll like it? Yeah, that.
Of course I’d love to look like her and we do have the same basic things in common, very blue eyes, dark hair, a fringe and paleness.
And when people say it I’m all ‘oh no I don’t’ and ‘don’t be silly’ kind of thing like kind of awkward about it because sometimes I do see what people mean but other times I’m like ERHM no
It’s not just the looks people are often like oh what you dress in is so cute and you’re so quirky *intensely shudders* but ugh people are probably being genuine but if they think I like hearing it then that just means it’s rather a weird situation and yeah.
So I sort of got pissed off at him last night.
He told me he went out after work (which honestly I thought was stupid after a twelve hour shift, TWELVE HOUR SHIFT) and then he went into the bathroom at the place they where and some scary big guys were talking about some horrible story and no matter how much I plead him to tell me he won’t. so yeah, they offered him some freaking cocaine off one of the guys fingers…and he did it.
I’m used to him doing stupid things he’s just one of those guys that does stupid things and I get that but this was something I didn’t expect, which is strange as I can often anticipate his actions and how stupid they are.
I was quite pissed off at him just because and I said this to him, there doesn’t seem to be a limit of what he does, he will do a lot of stupid things, just because he can, and we fell out for a bit, me being silent mostly.
Then he had a panic attack, and of course I helped him through it, I told him to breathe and held his hand told him he could squeeze it if he needed, stroked his face and head and cuddled him. After a while I asked how he felt if he was still experiencing the attack and he said he felt loved.
Then we fell asleep.